Life

They made everything about life so anxiety inducing. School, work, driving, shopping, eating, and sleeping. Why?

I'm always in flow. Typically; when I'm not in the middle of taking everybody down.

You need to become a loner to have that. The greatest sacrifice I ever made, and I did this a few times, was giving up a booming social life. It was painful when I was younger, but age brought me some healing balm.

I was never welcome. I was bullied. And people are like, "Why are you talking about that so much? It makes you look weak".

I'll never look at people the same way, after what I've experienced this year. Revelation came like the Black Death. I was preserving people like saints in my mind, in little cradles. At least 90 people, my closest friends, ganged up to take me down and absorbed what I had built. The power I had built through my own suffering.

I was already humbled by life. It's not like I wasn't used to that. My art came back. My prayers, plant medicines, and art are the only things that survived a blow like that.

So, I owe my life to them. To Jesus and Mary. Mother Nature.

I healed my spirit. Jesus healed my spirit. But, my soul is rare like a first copy. People saw a side of me that is enchanting. Fearless.

I keep it inside and only for the people who really know me. Like the neighbborhood kids.

I don't want people to feel bad. I don't really care what these fools tried to do to me.

They kicked me up a few notches, creatively and aesthetically. My life is better with almost nothing. I live a Mexican lifestyle. Like the kinds of people who work with clay.

I was born to be like that. Like my grandmother.

God gave me luxury. More luxury than most millionaires. I was supposed to be somebody very political and powerful. A lawyer or something.

But I chose something way better and more influential. An artist, a healer, and a wanderer - a life of doing things that my entire country sees as pointless. It's not about rebuking responsibility. It's about taking it in another direction.

At the same time, I chose a life of freedom.

What's more important than healing the human mind and body?

Ok, you'll make all this money and come to me for healing wisdom. So what comes first? Or do you want to damage everything until you have no other option?

Liz Soko